Nov 11, 2010
Good morning Brothers and Sisters, for those of you who don’t know me, you still don’t. However, I will tell you a bit about myself. I am a 6-ish generation Mormon on both sides of my family. My heritage includes some big names in the Mormon community, Palmer, Lee, Hamblin, Smith, Anderson and more. As a youth I won’t say that I did all the right things, but I did go on a mission and I did get sealed in the temple over a decade ago. My wife is a faithfulish member who, when left to her own devices understands some problems created by the church, but when confronted she will defend the church to the death. My children are beautiful and believing, but curious (a trait I hope to enhance). I like to wear shirts that have just a little color in them to church, just to stick it to the man and be a rebel (yeah you know you better not cross me in the church hallway)!
I have come to the conclusion that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is not the one and only true church. I believe that the creation story of the church, as told by the church, is bunk. The BoM can’t be correct. Early church leaders were untruthful and motivated by power, celebrity and sex. That said, I think that modern Mormons and Mormon leadership are good people that are creating a good community that is well organized and is probably not corrupt.
I do not believe in science, I trust in science, because science delivers the goods. Science is the best method that anyone on earth has to estimate truth. I consider myself to be agnostic when it comes to God and an afterlife. I am waiting for that piece of incontrovertible evidence to show His/Her/It’s existence before I commit my heart to It any more.
I am still active in the Brighamite branch of the church. I attend most every Sunday. I still wear my Garments, but I don’t want to, and haven’t attended the temple in over 5 years, I don’t intend on returning unless maybe my children want to be married there. I have two callings in the Church, co-Activities Chairman (with my wife) and Elders Quorum Teacher.
It is this heavy involvement with the church and backlash from the wife that I feel I will have to be anonymous here. At some point I hope to be more open. I plan to blog mostly about my adventures as an Elders Quorum Teacher. During each of the lessons I have taught I find some incredible incongruity once I stepped out of the Mormon Paradigm. I have found this interesting, enlightening and even jaw dropping at times. I often stand up in front of the Elders, explain a logical fallacy, or an incongruity and watch the elders do the mental backflips to make Mormonism and Christianity still work for them.
But what I find most frustrating is that I have to teach from the Gospel Principles manual. I and most others in the EQ have heard this same stuff for year on end and some, from the beginning of life. Those who are in missionary callings hear this same stuff twice a week! They hear it in Gospel Essentials and then in EQ or RS. My wife has a friend in Gospel Essentials class and often wants me to go with her. By the end of the day I want to gouge out my eyes and puncture my ear drums. COME ON CHURCH LEADERSHIP, give us just a little bit of meat. I know that we have to have milk before meat but my babies will never grow into adults if all they get is milk! Anyway enough of my ALL CAPS. I am not one given to all caps and exclamation points easily. I hope that you enjoy these writings and ramblings, as much as I have writing them.
Finally, I want to thank John for allowing me to post here. I hope that you all will find my musings enjoyable, thoughtful, and interesting.
-Defiantly wearing a non-white shirt