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Borrowed Light and the Bourne Identity

Someone recently posted an interesting comment to my four year old blog post where I outlined my reasons for not attending the Mormon church anymore.  The commenter said he has been troubled by “a few things in church history”, and that if he had not experienced so many spiritual experiences, that he too might have left the church. He went on to say that, “as I’ve thought about it over the years, I concluded those who leave over the reasons you stated never acquired a testimony.  I believe they lived on ‘borrowed light’”.

I’m sure that there are at least some church members who continue to attend even though they haven’t had any powerful spiritual experiences with the church and are living on “borrowed light” – in my experience they are social and cultural mormons.  I also know a few members who go every Sunday even though they don’t believe any longer in the foundational stories of the LDS church – they typically attend for family reasons. More

Raw Nerves

For a while now I’ve thought that the trauma and emotion surrounding our family leaving the Mormon church was behind us. Even though I haven’t been physically healthy this past year, I’ve felt emotionally healthy for some time now.  Then on Sunday a friend excitedly called to let me know about the new Stake Presidency in our area, and I felt like I was in a dentist’s chair and the drill had just hit a raw nerve. 

My friend didn’t know this, but as we were leaving the church in 2007, two members of our Bishopric (now called to the new stake presidency) met with my partner and I, and let us know that we were “worth fighting for”.  A noble sentiment, but unfortunately both of them were unprepared to deal with the substance of our concerns. Over four evenings we talked about polyandry, polygamy, blacks and the priesthood, women and the priesthood and the nature of testimonies. More

Cheating The Repentance Process

A Blog post in two parts; by Rich McCue & Bob McCue

Rich McCue Writes…

As a Mormon missionary in Brazil, I regularly taught investigators how to repent as part of the missionary discussions.  I’ve found the repentance process to be a good template for how to fix things when I’ve made mistakes in my post-Mormon life as well.  That said, it is ironic that the Mormon church as an institution has not consistently used the repentance process when it has made mistakes over the years.  For those who did not serve a mission or can’t remember from hazy mists of Sunday school, I’ll do a quick review of the 4 step repentance process:

  1. Recognize what you’ve done is wrong and feel genuine sorrow.
  2. Ask forgiveness of god & the person or people you have harmed.
  3. If possible, make restitution for the wrong you’ve done.
  4. Don’t do it again. More