Apr 12, 2011
I openly confess that I am by nature somewhat of a contrarian. I like to argue just for sport. Therefore, in a forum such as Mormon Expression, I feel a very strong pull toward playing the apologist role, since my impression is that the majority of followers of ME are non-believers in the LDS Church. I realize that this attitude is dangerous, as people will call my motives and sincerity into question. But I hope what I say here will come across in a sincere way.
At times, I have been accused of lacking integrity because my beliefs in the church are nuanced, and I have not just thrown up my hands and said, “it’s all a lie.” Yet I still want to be understanding, and try my honest best to have an open dialogue with those who do not share my beliefs, whether Mormon, ex-Mormon, or never-Mormon. While I have many doubts and questions myself, I find value in maintaining as healthy a relationship as possible with the church of my upbringing. I have done my best to be honest with my family and leaders, and they still consider me a faithful, temple-recommend-worthy, member of the church. More