Jan 11, 2012
Tierza talks with Heather about her struggles to remain a faithful Mormon as the bricks of her faith fell away one by one.
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By Heather C.
I’m about half through the podcast and I have to go do something else but I wanted to make some quick comments, and ask some questions.
- My family moved a lot when I was growing up, and in high school I framed it as something that helped me in the long term, because I got good at making friends. But in a lot of ways this hasn’t really been the case because I move, and largely am unable to maintain the friendships I’ve made because even though people are usually happy to see me again the distance just makes having meaningful friendships difficult. How did moving around so much affect you?
- Looking back on it I think I was more of the self-righteous companion on the mission rather than someone who had an overactive guilt complex. But the guilt was there too.
- I also did the first discussion thing at the doorstep. Ugh. I wonder if the church really thinks that works. I went to Phoenix.
- I liked BYU too. It was a good experience for me overall.
I’m always amazed when reading your blog entries how much we have in common. Listening to this, I realize we have yet another thing in common: our husband’s backgrounds in the church. Which makes this path all the more difficult.
I really love your analogy to Jenga.
Thanks for another great podcast!
Tierza, I too really liked 2 Nephi (Isaiah and Jacob!), and the older I got, the more I disliked Nephi (for the same reasons you did: the guy has serious problems relating with other people). I admit that it took me a while, though. For a good long while I bought Nephi’s pious fraud — the faux rhetorical humility that he assumes when talking about himself, and the self-serving portraits of his brothers. Man, that guy is annoying (as a character: thank goodness he never existed in real life, unless he represents an avatar of Joseph Smith).
Amen. Ironically, that awareness of Nephi as a highly unsympathetic character came early on. My only sympathy with Nephi is 2 Ne 4, a tiny island of self-awareness and doubt in a sea of condescension and self-righteousness. Maybe Joseph “translated” the psalm of Nephi the day after the new farmer with the 15 year old daughter moved in next door.
Tierza, I loved your comment about praying to know if your husband was the right person to marry. I feel like I came to the same conclusion: that the choice was mine. I feel like I had a clear mind showing me the potential issues and the pluses of marrying my spouse, but it was totally my decision as to if I wanted to marry that person. I remember it being a very liberating and peaceful feeling. That experience and “answer” to prayer has allowed me to better own and confront the issues that have come up in marriage. Loved this episode.
I know you haven’t had a lot of comments on this, but I want to say that I really enjoyed hearing your story. Thanks for sharing with us!
A YW calling was also the final piece of my Jenga tower. Something about participating in the indoctrination of the next generation of women… especially because my own was 15 at the time. That was 3 years ago…. all 6 of us are out now!
Since people are not commenting much on this thread, I am going to say here that I really enjoy reading Tierza’s blog posts, even when I have nothing constructive to add to them. Good work! And thanks for sharing.
Add me as one who’s a fan of your blog posts, Tierza. I enjoyed the interview too. You seem to think the same way I do on quite a few things.
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